Tag: Writing
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The Messy Middle
I’ve spent most of my adulthood going in between two extremes. There’s a lot behind this. Part of it is a trauma response… feeling like I need to fix myself. Some of it is because I’m constantly seeking dopamine due to a lack which means “shiny new things” are always appealing. I am also an…
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Processing Through Journaling
I just thought I’d share my journal from today. It was a little scattered but also pretty helpful. I’m learning more and more about myself. I realized yesterday that I have been battling the weight/body image/nutrition/exercise battle for a long time, and I have never sought God’s wisdom on it. WHY am I so obsessed with…
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Expectations and Peace
I have had a rough few days mentally and emotionally. I wrote this on Facebook yesterday: “I’ve been struggling again the last few days. Heavy depression. I had therapy and cried more than usual. I realized today that deep down I feel like I’m just a burden and not an asset to anyone. Like my…
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One Day at a Time
I feel like every time I write, big things have happened in between posts. My life is never boring; that’s for sure. I will say that the most recent things that have been going on have been really good. I’m feeling more and more peace each day. I have honestly been a bit disconnected from…
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Finding Personal Agency in Habits… One Day at a Time
These past several months have felt extremely heavy. Many of the things that have been going on aren’t things I can share about publicly, but I have been carrying a lot. Most days I wonder if I will ever have longer “good” seasons. I feel like the majority of my adulthood has been one trial…
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Darkness
These past few weeks have been rough. I feel like all of the struggle is just continuing. It is turning into pretty deep depression. I tried a new medication for my depression, and things just got worse. I had terrible side effects… I was super out of it, super anxious, terrible dry mouth, extremely fatigued……
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Doing Something New
Robert and I went to one of our favorite coffee shops last night for a little date night. We had our favorite coffee and enjoyed the open mic night. This is becoming a more regular thing lately, and I love it. While we were sitting and listening to people sing (and watching people at the…
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Slowing Down, Savoring, and Prioritizing
I am a human being, not a human doing. I’ve heard this many times lately, and it’s slowly sticking. Exhaustion is a reminder that always going and seeking perfection isn’t what we have been called to. Trusting God is the ultimate way to receive peace. Loosening my grip on things that I can’t control is…
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Just a Few Days Without Social Media…
I have taken breaks from social media many, many times over the years. I always go back. Sometimes the same day. Sometimes I will manage to have days, weeks, or even months without it. But, I always go back. There are definitely positive things about social media. I connect with my friends. There are old…
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Overcoming Hard Days + Exciting Possibilities
Literally the day after I wrote my last post, I woke up sick. I haven’t been sick in quite a while. I had Covid in November, then before that it was a long time. I used to be sick all the time, and I hated it because I was made to feel guilty for it…
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