Tag: Depression
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What You Think Matters
Our thoughts are affected by: 1) What we consume, 2) What we tell ourselves, and 3) What we are trying to control that is not ours to control. I have been realizing lately HOW MUCH what I consume matters. If I am constantly taking in negative things, I will think negatively. If I am constantly…
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Finding Personal Agency in Habits… One Day at a Time
These past several months have felt extremely heavy. Many of the things that have been going on aren’t things I can share about publicly, but I have been carrying a lot. Most days I wonder if I will ever have longer “good” seasons. I feel like the majority of my adulthood has been one trial…
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Life Will Always Be Life: Beautiful and Difficult
A few nights ago, I had the opportunity to remember what I just wrote about. There always seems to be something that “pops up” as soon as I feel like things are settling. Every time. So, I figured something would be coming. Homeschooling & Teenagers I can’t write about it, but I guess I’m eating…
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Through Darkness, There Came a Light
I remember the day that I checked myself into rehab very clearly. After I had gotten checked in (my bags were searched, I was searched, I talked with the financial lady and cried), I saw the medical doctor for the first time. I remember asking him, “are there any other people like me here?” For…
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Life Lately
I found out Wednesday that the reason I was still feeling bad (it kept getting worse) is that I had strep in addition to the flu! The benefit of it being strep is that I could take an antibiotic! After less than 24 hours on it, I felt so much better. I’m still not 100%…
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Learning To Be More Intentional
I have been trying to write a blog post for days. It has felt nearly impossible because I’ve had the flu. It just won’t go away! Because of this, my thoughts are kind of all over the place. I keep going to bed hoping that I will wake up feeling better the next day, then…
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Clarity
Every single day, I feel more and more clarity in my mind and heart. It’s really hard to put into words. On a normal day, even in my “good seasons,” there is a heaviness, anxiety, and fear that is just always there. It’s like my brain is always scanning and trying to figure out what…
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No Longer Shrinking Myself
After four doses of my new medication, I’ve already started to feel noticeably better. I didn’t think that was possible because I have read it can take up to 2-6 weeks. But then I googled and realized that a lot of people noticed a difference almost right away (especially if they were in a depressive…
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A Little Bit of Hope
I’ve been seeing my psychiatric nurse practitioner for about a year. I’ve mentioned a few times that my previous PA and my current NP weren’t so sure about the Bipolar 2 diagnosis that I had received years ago. I have also been on so many bipolar meds over the years, and I didn’t feel any…
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Letting Go of Fear, One Minute at a Time
My mental health honestly exhausts me. Monday, I felt so good. I had done a hard hike, spent time in God’s ceration with my hubby, and the weather was perfect. I had a weird night of sleep that night (as usual). I tend to have vivid dreams most nights. I sleep “enough,” but it’s not…
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