Tag: Mental Illness
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Through Darkness, There Came a Light
I remember the day that I checked myself into rehab very clearly. After I had gotten checked in (my bags were searched, I was searched, I talked with the financial lady and cried), I saw the medical doctor for the first time. I remember asking him, “are there any other people like me here?” For…
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No Longer Shrinking Myself
After four doses of my new medication, I’ve already started to feel noticeably better. I didn’t think that was possible because I have read it can take up to 2-6 weeks. But then I googled and realized that a lot of people noticed a difference almost right away (especially if they were in a depressive…
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A Little Bit of Hope
I’ve been seeing my psychiatric nurse practitioner for about a year. I’ve mentioned a few times that my previous PA and my current NP weren’t so sure about the Bipolar 2 diagnosis that I had received years ago. I have also been on so many bipolar meds over the years, and I didn’t feel any…
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As I Reflect on 2024
Spending some time alone this last morning of 2024. As I reflect on this year, I have had some high highs and low lows. Some days felt impossible. Some days felt as though my mental health had healed. While it’s sad when I realize my brain still struggles some times, my therapist reminds me to…
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Darkness and Light
I feel like I’ve been living in some paradoxes lately. Simply put, a paradox is a situation/statement that lives in contradiction (two opposites that can be true at the same time). On one hand, I’m still so so grateful for the life that God has given me. I absolutely LOVE where we live. I’m still…
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Life is a Paradox: Hard AND Beautiful
Just a warning… this is pretty long. I started this post a week ago and just had the mental energy to pick it back up. These past few weeks have been hard and honestly just plain weird. I know I said that last time I wrote, but it continued. We have had a lot of…
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Acceptance
I feel like I’m coming into a new phase of life. The past few days during my prayer journaling, I have just felt God’s presence and peace in new ways. I shared these things on Facebook, but I’m going to expand on them here. I’m learning that it’s okay to have less active seasons. It’s…
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Always Trying to Fix, Solve, and Find Cause and Solution
I have been doing some processing the past few days. I have been having more anxiety lately, and I have been trying to control it. I honestly thought quitting sodas and social media would take care of it. But nothing has changed. In fact, I think I’m feeling more anxious because of trying to be…
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Seasons Change…
Seasons are changing… and life has come full circle for our family. These past few weeks/months have been a roller coaster. I guess that’s life. We put the boys in school in August. I dropped Karis off 7.5 hours away at her university the next day. I was working quite a bit but was struggling……
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Leaning On the Everlasting Arms (of Jesus)
This week has been hard. Sunday, I was so depressed. I had physical exhaustion from it. I took a hike with Robert thinking that it would help, but instead, I got more exhausted. I worked that afternoon, and it took every ounce of energy to do that. I made it through with God’s Grace. Something…
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