Tag: healing
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Sacred Unraveling

SACRED. Holy. Set apart. Divine. UNRAVELING. Threads loosening. Coming undone. Letting go. Surrender. Through the mess of unraveling, I have developed a deeper relationship with the person of Christ. He has been right there with me as I have been learning who I am and slowly lowering the mask that I have been wearing my…
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Expectations and Peace

I have had a rough few days mentally and emotionally. I wrote this on Facebook yesterday: “I’ve been struggling again the last few days. Heavy depression. I had therapy and cried more than usual. I realized today that deep down I feel like I’m just a burden and not an asset to anyone. Like my…
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What You Think Matters

Our thoughts are affected by: 1) What we consume, 2) What we tell ourselves, and 3) What we are trying to control that is not ours to control. I have been realizing lately HOW MUCH what I consume matters. If I am constantly taking in negative things, I will think negatively. If I am constantly…
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Through Darkness, There Came a Light

I remember the day that I checked myself into rehab very clearly. After I had gotten checked in (my bags were searched, I was searched, I talked with the financial lady and cried), I saw the medical doctor for the first time. I remember asking him, “are there any other people like me here?” For…
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Clarity

Every single day, I feel more and more clarity in my mind and heart. It’s really hard to put into words. On a normal day, even in my “good seasons,” there is a heaviness, anxiety, and fear that is just always there. It’s like my brain is always scanning and trying to figure out what…
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No Longer Shrinking Myself

After four doses of my new medication, I’ve already started to feel noticeably better. I didn’t think that was possible because I have read it can take up to 2-6 weeks. But then I googled and realized that a lot of people noticed a difference almost right away (especially if they were in a depressive…
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As I Reflect on 2024

Spending some time alone this last morning of 2024. As I reflect on this year, I have had some high highs and low lows. Some days felt impossible. Some days felt as though my mental health had healed. While it’s sad when I realize my brain still struggles some times, my therapist reminds me to…
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Acceptance

I feel like I’m coming into a new phase of life. The past few days during my prayer journaling, I have just felt God’s presence and peace in new ways. I shared these things on Facebook, but I’m going to expand on them here. I’m learning that it’s okay to have less active seasons. It’s…
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Leaning On the Everlasting Arms (of Jesus)

This week has been hard. Sunday, I was so depressed. I had physical exhaustion from it. I took a hike with Robert thinking that it would help, but instead, I got more exhausted. I worked that afternoon, and it took every ounce of energy to do that. I made it through with God’s Grace. Something…
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So Much Growth

I’ve been learning so much about myself through the good and the hard things. I think that’s the way life goes… there are always going to be hard things to learn and grow through. If I’ve learned anything, it’s that life is a roller-coaster… and honestly, I’m learning to be okay with that. Without the…
