Category: PTSD
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Darkness and Light
I feel like I’ve been living in some paradoxes lately. Simply put, a paradox is a situation/statement that lives in contradiction (two opposites that can be true at the same time). On one hand, I’m still so so grateful for the life that God has given me. I absolutely LOVE where we live. I’m still…
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Always Trying to Fix, Solve, and Find Cause and Solution
I have been doing some processing the past few days. I have been having more anxiety lately, and I have been trying to control it. I honestly thought quitting sodas and social media would take care of it. But nothing has changed. In fact, I think I’m feeling more anxious because of trying to be…
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Our Limits Tell Us Important Things About Ourselves
Today was such a life-giving day! It was just what I needed. It started with some quality time with Jesus and time with the boys before they went to school. I made homemade whole wheat pumpkin banana muffins for the boys and me. So good! I had therapy at 10:00, and it was incredibly helpful.…
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Leaning On the Everlasting Arms (of Jesus)
This week has been hard. Sunday, I was so depressed. I had physical exhaustion from it. I took a hike with Robert thinking that it would help, but instead, I got more exhausted. I worked that afternoon, and it took every ounce of energy to do that. I made it through with God’s Grace. Something…
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My Complicated Mental Health
My mental health is very complicated. I have a LONG history of struggle. Not just a little bit of struggle. Severe struggle. Trauma, hospitalization (multiple times), not being able to keep a full time job, severe anxiety with major physical symptoms, rehab/alcoholism, and on and on. It has been hard to even determine what my…
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“Cease Striving” + Simplifying & Letting Go Even More
I had an appointment with my psychiatric nurse practitioner/therapist today which was so helpful. I’ve struggled off and on all summer. I will feel better, then the anxiety and depression will hit out of nowhere. Life is so good right now. I feel like I’ve hit a “sweet spot” through the decisions that I’ve made…
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Mental Health Growth & Healing: What Have I Learned?
I have been on a mental health healing journey for YEARS. It has been VERY up and down (as I’ve shared a million times). I haven’t had mild mental illness. I have been inpatient and outpatient in mental health hospitals, developed alcoholism, have been in rehab, haven’t been able to keep a long-term full-time job,…
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Life Lately
This week has been super busy. I had some sort of plan (or more than one thing planned) every day this week. I was really nervous going into the week, but it turned out to be a very great week! My last several posts have been processing through things, and I feel like now I’m…
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Learning to Control the Chaos in My Head
I feel like I’ve lost sight of a lot the past week or two. Last year (especially in the fall), my relationship with Jesus grew to a whole new level. I was spending time with Him every single morning without fail… praying for a long time, spending time in His Word, and worshiping Him. I would worship…
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Healing Isn’t Linear, Part 2
I have started writing this post so many times, and I’ve had to start over multiple times. There are so many things going on in my life at the moment, and some of the most important things can’t be shared… so it’s hard to know where to start. First, I want to bring up what…
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