A Full 360

I have whiplash.

Things have changed again. A full 360 I guess you could say.

We will be homeschooling one of my kiddos after all. We gave him a chance to try school again, and it didn’t go well at all. It has been chaotic from day 1, and we are only in week 4.

I’m not going to hash out the details because it’s not anyone’s business, but I’m having to process this change (again). We went from me working full time, to homeschooling, to putting the kids back in school, to pulling a kid back out.

I should have listened to Robert when he was super hesitant to put him back in. But at least we learned a few things. At least we can say we tried again. Now we know that he just needs to homeschool through high school. We won’t try again. We are done with the back and forth. I don’t know about the other (boy) kiddo, but we will see what he decides. We may just wait and see if he asks and just keep doing what we are doing.

I’m exhausted. I didn’t sleep at all last night. These past several weeks have been a major roller coaster. I feel peace about our decision, but it’s going to take some more adjustment for both of us. I think we will just finish this week out and start next week. I’m waiting for his math curriculum anyway.

I honestly didn’t want to homeschool. I mean, I will like it once we get going again, but I was excited about the things that I was going to be focusing on. I just wrote a long post about it! It’s just a huge mindset shift again.

I have an upset stomach. My anxiety is pretty high. We are at peace with our decision, but a big, stressful thing happened to push us to make that decision. So, I’m just trying to figure that out.

Anyway. This is where we are. As you can probably tell, I’m still processing. It’ll all work out the way it’s supposed to, but at the moment, we are a little overwhelmed.