It has been a while since I have blogged. There are a couple reasons for that: 1) I’m not sharing as much of myself online, and 2) I have been very busy.
I have been going through some hard stuff lately. Some of it will continue for a long time. I’m having to just accept that and move forward. Some of it is related to being in the waiting room about the job stuff for next year (and I also said I would teach summer school so I’m waiting on that as well). Both have caused quite a bit of anxiety in a season in which I’m usually doing really well.
I have decided recently that something that is needed is more time in nature. Instead of sitting in my house and being in my head, I have been trying to get out and take a long walk or hike. Being outside is healing. It’s peaceful. It’s freeing. I don’t do it enough.
My blog is about being wild and free, and I often don’t live that out because of anxiety. But I will keep pursuing this until it sticks.
There are so many ways that I am pursuing a wild and free life.
Walking to my favorite spot 30 minutes down the road.
Going for hikes on random trails and getting lost (only to find my way eventually).
Camp bought a Westfalia Vanagon recently, and Robert has been fixing it up. We are taking it to Big Bend at the end of the month! I can’t wait. I’m giddy with excitement about it.
My class has been doing life-giving things like raising butterflies and planting and raising green bean plants. Spring is my favorite season. I’ll share pics of the plants when they are big enough for them to take home. They are already pretty tall!
We are learning a lot and super busy at school. I love being there. I put so much time and energy into my kids because they deserve it.
My garden is slow-growing and something keeps eating many of my plants, but I’ll keep trying.
This is only one bed out of three. Two of these plants are completely gone since taking this pic.
We are getting 7-9 eggs per day from our 9 chickens. They are happy girls. Our 3 babies have grown a bunch.
This song is sort of my life anthem at the moment.
“Heavy” by Birdtalker
If you’re lost and you’re lonely
Go and figure out why
Take a trip to your darkside
Go on and have a good cry
‘Cause we’re all lonely
Yeah, we’re all lonely together
I want to see your sadness
I want to share your sin
I want to be your blood
And I want to be let in
Don’t you just
Don’t we all just
Want to be together
Leave what’s heavy
What’s heavy behind
Leave what’s heavy
What’s heavy behind
If your face is down
Take a look around
Do your fingers move?
Do your lungs inflate?
Are you tired, are you weary
Of the hidden hate you’ve been holding?
And did you lose that love?
Or have you never had it?
Are you feeling sad ’cause you did a bad thing?
Leave what’s heavy
What’s heavy behind
Leave what’s heavy
What’s heavy behind
Are you feeling fearful brother?
Are you feeling fearful sister?
The only way to lose that fearful feeling
Replace it with love that’s healing
Are you feeling fearful brother?
Are you feeling fearful sister?
Leave what’s heavy
What’s heavy behind
Leave what’s heavy
What’s heavy behind
Leave what’s heavy
What’s heavy behind
Leave what’s heavy
What’s heavy behind
Simply Courtney 