Well. Here we are again. I had all of these ideas and expectations about what life would look like now, and I’m “not measuring up.”
Robert and I talked this morning and he thinks I need to come up with a few priorities right now and make decisions about life right now (for the next 3 months) based on those priorities.
I wrote a post called Spiritual, Mental, Physical, and Emotional Health, and I had all of these lofty ideas that I could pull it all off. Little did I know that driving every day was going to wear me out. Lack of finances (because of driving 5 days a week to town and seeing a counselor twice a week) wins out over wanting to eat naturally and all real foods. Plus just my love for a few things wins out (Coke Zero and pumpkin creamer). I want to enjoy the little things for now. I’m giving up something that has been a big part of my life for several years (alcohol), and it’s a powerful thing to give up. I need to be satisfied with that for now. I can re-visit wanting to eat all real foods in a few months! I will continue eating balanced, though. I love baking so I will eat homemade bread and homemade breakfasts. I will continue taking my lunch to town, which means I eat healthy lunches. I also eat healthy dinners mostly (unless we eat in the dining hall).
I will exercise as I have time. When I have nothing in my afternoons, I’ll have time. The times that I have lots going on in a day (like yesterday), I will be okay with the fact that I cannot exercise. Life goes on.
My main goals are sobriety and spiritual/emotional/mental health. They go hand in hand. If I have all these goals that I cannot attain, I’m not taking care of my emotional/mental health. If I exercise and don’t have time to spend time in the word, I’m not taking care of my spiritual health. I will do the best I can as I get through a hectic 3 months.
Let’s try this again. Here I go. I can do this with the Lord’s help.
Simply Courtney 